It's 11:35 pm on a Tuesday night. I am trying to wind down and go to sleep but as usual, tired but not quite sleepy yet. So I lay here and think about things. The endless list of "things" to fill my day and keep me busy. It can be exhausting at times. I think … Continue reading What I miss….
August 21, 2018 State of Emotion – Fear: Jealously and Mistrust reaction I was looking through previous posts and realized how far I have come from that very first entry over 3 years ago. The idea for this blog was going to be about cake decorating, sugar art, and related topics. The first writings were … Continue reading State of Emotion – Fear: Jealously and Mistrust reaction
7/19/18 It is the middle of July. The kids will be heading back to school in about a month. One will be a senior in high school and the others will be in college. As I look back, I knew this day would get here but wasn’t really prepared emotionally or mentally for the upcoming … Continue reading Parenting…we are not all the same.
July 12, 2018 The summer sun is slowing setting and the green trees are casting their shadows. The house is very quiet. The only sound is the hum of a fan blowing in the kitchen. The kids are off doing their own thing and my online relationship person is nowhere to be seen at the … Continue reading Filling the void.
It’s July 9, 2018. I was looking through my Instagram posts yesterday evening when I found the very first comments my online person made on one of my posts. It was January 1st. The first day of the New Year and here it is 6 months later and we are still talking to each other…I … Continue reading Too clingy and needy – 3 a.m. thoughts
July 5, 2018 It’s a hot Thursday evening, middle of the summertime. I was lying there this afternoon thinking about the conversation I had with my online relationship. We have a lot of miscommunication between us. Partly due to our cultural differences and partly because of the age gap but we continue striving toward a … Continue reading A moment away…
Regret – Midnight Musings It’s June 28, 2018, 12:20 am. Yesterday, I had yet another anxious day but my thoughts turned into harsh, callous, and cold words toward the person I care about. I had so much regret and remorse for what I said to him. All I could do was apologize and hope that … Continue reading Regret – Midnight Musings
June 14, 2018. Hello, A little over 4 months ago I did not know you even existed. One day out of the blue a follow request would change things in my life in more ways than one. The first major hurdle that had to be overcome was our tremendous age difference. You have been very … Continue reading A letter to you.
Laying here. Staring at these four walls. Wondering if there is a purpose to it all. The clock slowly ticks away the time. Tired and anxious. My normal mind. Looking through the slightly open blinds. The sounds of the world. Slowly going by. Tired of being here, as before. Want to go home. Find solace … Continue reading These four walls – by Suzanne Allen
It is May 15, 2018, and I have been talking to this online person for about 3 months now. He actually started following me in January but it took about a month before he actually messaged me then a few more weeks before I actually started responding. We have been talking to each other every … Continue reading Love is ageless – Answers to some questions.