Nighttime Madness – by Suzanne E. Allen Thoughts of doubts fill my mind. Midnight anxiety, right on time. Self-destruction, breaking self. No amount of kind words can help. Please be patient with me, again. It’s never about you my friend. Need a moment to let the words fade. A long time ago they were made. … Continue reading Nighttime Madness – A poem
April 20th, 2018 Sitting in the car looking at how many miles until I hit empty. Just feeling grateful for the $20 of gas my son put in the car for me. At the same time also feeling pretty useless. It has been a hard adjustment this past year. I know that I shouldn’t feel … Continue reading 164 miles to E – Another 365 days around the sun.
It is Friday the 13th, April 2018. Yesterday, I spent a good portion of the day at a veteran’s job fair. I thought there would be more employers there but unfortunately, some did not show. I talked to few companies, told them what kind of positions I was looking for and then handed out resumes. … Continue reading Retrospect – Thoughts on how life moves.
April 10th, 2018 It is a Tuesday night after 10:30 pm and I should be thinking about heading off to sleep. Too many thoughts going through my mind and I don’t like it. I haven’t had these thoughts in a very long time it is making me feel lost and confused. I started talking with … Continue reading Lost and Confused – I’m too old for this.
It is April 9, 2018. I am still a single mom of four kids. This is not where I thought I would be at 47 (my birthday is in 12 days). I had hoped that by the time I reached 50, I would be settled down somewhere, paying off a mortgage, mid-career, planning for retirement … Continue reading Alone – Introspection on a life lived.
It is 11:50 pm on a Saturday night. I sit alone in the darkness, texting, chatting online and thinking about how to write this. This morning I went and saw the movie “Acrimony” by Tyler Perry starring Taraji P. Henson. The synopsis of the story states it was about a woman who gets revenge for … Continue reading Hold on or let go – Under the influence of a movie.
The last 4 years has been this never-ending cycle of change. It was a scary thing to do. The day I decided to change my life path by ending everything I knew up to that point. To dare to dream of a life that was completely opposite of what I knew. Some told me I … Continue reading Second chances – Ready or not.
I was reading today on the news, social media, and the internet that over a million students across the United States walked out of school yesterday, March 14, 2018, to protest and support an assault weapons ban across the country. This was spurred by yet another school shooting last month. As I perused through different … Continue reading One voice – Observing social movements
It is another late night. Still unable to sleep at a “normal” time. It is almost 1 a.m. and once again I am still wide awake. I used to start feeling tired about 9:30 in the evening and would be asleep by 11 p.m. It has been over a month since the last time I … Continue reading Insomnia – Too many thoughts
It is March 8th, 2018 and according to my calendar and social media, it is International Women’s Day. To be honest, I had no idea there was such a day. I don’t spend a lot of time following trends, politics or anything related to social movements. It’s not that I don’t care but sometimes my … Continue reading Women