Emptiness. Hole. Hollow. "The quality or state of being without something" These are similar descriptions of feeling nothing. A void. People with Major Depression and anxiety understand the void very well. As one with major depression this feeling of emptiness happens quite often especially when under stress. During these moments of feeling nothing, it's almost … Continue reading Void
January 13th, 2019 It is a Sunday evening. Twice today I got into an argument with my online relationship. Same topic different day. We have never actually settled it from previously. After I got mad, unfollowed and blocked him on all social media I then proceeded to tell him that it wasn’t for me anymore. … Continue reading Live, Love, Laugh – What does it really mean?
It is January 13th. It has been at least two weeks since I wrote anything to post on my blog. So I went looking for some more writing prompts or inspirations. I found an Instagram account called Silver Leaf Poetry. They have a weekly Sunday writing contest. They give you a prompt and you let … Continue reading Writing Contests and Challenges
It is December 23, 2018. I’m sitting here on this Sunday morning drinking my coffee, listening to Christmas music, and trying to find that holiday spirit. Christmas is just 2 days away and it just feels like any other day. I’ve had moments in the past when I just didn’t feel up to the holiday … Continue reading Seasons Greetings, Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!
The year is coming to a close. So many changes occurred in 2018 for me. Sometimes, I sit back and think about everything that I went through. Happiness, sadness, joy, reminiscence, and some awe-inspiring moments, thoughts that make tears come to my eyes. I look back at the last 4 years and still feel some of … Continue reading Finding Serenity
That bewitching hour arrives once more. Darkness surrounds. Closed windows and doors. Lying awake, staring into the black. Thoughts tumbling over and over. Stress and anxiety start to react. Peace splintered once more. Nothing new to the mind. Been here before. Words carelessly are thrown about. What is it this time? Self-sabotage or self-doubt? Doesn't … Continue reading Tears in the Dark by Suzanne Allen
Love...on the other side of the world by Suzanne Allen Dedicated to Ghabriel. Time has moved so slow. Days my heart, felt like it would break. You would always know. We've fought quite often. I would be angry so would you too. Yet, Love never let our hearts harden. We miscommunicate like no other. Distance … Continue reading Love…on the other side of the world
Silence by Suzanne Allen Late night thoughts. Silence is deafening. Peace still being sought. Angry words are thrown about. Silence drowns the noise The heart wants to shout. Tired of feeling alone. Surrounded by silence. No one here in this home. Looked for something good. Silence, a long companion. Be patient was understood. Never knowing … Continue reading Silence – A poem
It's 11:35 pm on a Tuesday night. I am trying to wind down and go to sleep but as usual, tired but not quite sleepy yet. So I lay here and think about things. The endless list of "things" to fill my day and keep me busy. It can be exhausting at times. I think … Continue reading What I miss….
August 21, 2018 State of Emotion – Fear: Jealously and Mistrust reaction I was looking through previous posts and realized how far I have come from that very first entry over 3 years ago. The idea for this blog was going to be about cake decorating, sugar art, and related topics. The first writings were … Continue reading State of Emotion – Fear: Jealously and Mistrust reaction