July 5, 2018 It’s a hot Thursday evening, middle of the summertime. I was lying there this afternoon thinking about the conversation I had with my online relationship. We have a lot of miscommunication between us. Partly due to our cultural differences and partly because of the age gap but we continue striving toward a … Continue reading A moment away…
Regret – Midnight Musings It’s June 28, 2018, 12:20 am. Yesterday, I had yet another anxious day but my thoughts turned into harsh, callous, and cold words toward the person I care about. I had so much regret and remorse for what I said to him. All I could do was apologize and hope that … Continue reading Regret – Midnight Musings
June 14, 2018. Hello, A little over 4 months ago I did not know you even existed. One day out of the blue a follow request would change things in my life in more ways than one. The first major hurdle that had to be overcome was our tremendous age difference. You have been very … Continue reading A letter to you.
April 20th, 2018 Sitting in the car looking at how many miles until I hit empty. Just feeling grateful for the $20 of gas my son put in the car for me. At the same time also feeling pretty useless. It has been a hard adjustment this past year. I know that I shouldn’t feel … Continue reading 164 miles to E – Another 365 days around the sun.
It is Friday the 13th, April 2018. Yesterday, I spent a good portion of the day at a veteran’s job fair. I thought there would be more employers there but unfortunately, some did not show. I talked to few companies, told them what kind of positions I was looking for and then handed out resumes. … Continue reading Retrospect – Thoughts on how life moves.
It is April 9, 2018. I am still a single mom of four kids. This is not where I thought I would be at 47 (my birthday is in 12 days). I had hoped that by the time I reached 50, I would be settled down somewhere, paying off a mortgage, mid-career, planning for retirement … Continue reading Alone – Introspection on a life lived.
It is 11:50 pm on a Saturday night. I sit alone in the darkness, texting, chatting online and thinking about how to write this. This morning I went and saw the movie “Acrimony” by Tyler Perry starring Taraji P. Henson. The synopsis of the story states it was about a woman who gets revenge for … Continue reading Hold on or let go – Under the influence of a movie.
The last 4 years has been this never-ending cycle of change. It was a scary thing to do. The day I decided to change my life path by ending everything I knew up to that point. To dare to dream of a life that was completely opposite of what I knew. Some told me I … Continue reading Second chances – Ready or not.
I was reading today on the news, social media, and the internet that over a million students across the United States walked out of school yesterday, March 14, 2018, to protest and support an assault weapons ban across the country. This was spurred by yet another school shooting last month. As I perused through different … Continue reading One voice – Observing social movements
It is another late night. Still unable to sleep at a “normal” time. It is almost 1 a.m. and once again I am still wide awake. I used to start feeling tired about 9:30 in the evening and would be asleep by 11 p.m. It has been over a month since the last time I … Continue reading Insomnia – Too many thoughts