I’m sitting here staring at the screen and thinking about everything.  I stopped crying but the pain is still there at the surface waiting to spill over and I’m desperately trying to keep it at bay. Instead of running away from the wave of anxiety that started 30 minutes ago like I usually do by … Continue reading Venting – Releasing the frustration

June 28th, 2017 I have been taking college classes for many years now in the pursuit of a degree. Out of all the management and marketing courses one stood out because during that semester we were required to keep a daily journal as part of the grade. This journal wasn’t just a daily diary of … Continue reading Gratitude – A daily reminder

I’m 46 years old.  It’s hard to believe sometimes that I actually made it this far in life. The history of depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts could have ended everything for me a long time ago but it didn’t.  I’m still here, still pushing forward and still hopeful.  Resilient is the word most often used … Continue reading Finding Life’s Purpose – “Put up, Shut up or Get Out of the Way”

There have been many nights when my mind just wanders aimlessly and I cannot go to sleep.  Sometimes thoughts just come up.  I've never been good at poetry so the thoughts turn more into random prose. Today is that kind of day.  So here it is and I found a picture from one my morning … Continue reading Sleeplessness – Random Writing

I grew up not having complete trust in men or males and it took many years of counseling to face the reasons why. My mother became a single mom at the age of 22.  I was not planned and according to her, during her drunken states, unwanted.  It was harsh to grow up not feeling … Continue reading Father’s Day – A day with a different meaning

So today is my oldest child’s birthday.  I couldn’t sleep last night because of all the thoughts running through my mind.  Thinking about him and worrying, as a mom always does, whether he is happy or not was one of them. My son also has depression and anxiety issues coupled with highly active thoughts and … Continue reading Laughter & Smiling – Always the best medicine

It is early in the morning and I automatically wake up before the alarm once more.  I have been trying to adjust to getting back into a normal sleeping schedule again due the prospect of finding a full-time job. The habit of scrolling through social media as soon as I wake up is something that … Continue reading Envisioning the world – Social media