It’s Tuesday, February 20, 2018. A typical morning for us, getting up, showers, dressed, and ready to go. Ready to start the day and keep moving forward. After getting kids up and moving, I head back to my room to start getting ready. I normally, out of habit now, pick up my phone to check … Continue reading Things we learn…retrospect of growing up.
Lying here, thinking about today. My attempt to socialize more. Normally thats not hard for me. Yet, when I try to be friendly with other women, they tend to blow me off. That's what happened today, again. I tried to see just the positives, to not let it get to me, but it did. I … Continue reading I am, who I am.
It is February 7th, 2018, 4:20 in the morning. Today is my half-sister’s birthday. I haven’t talked to her in over a year but that’s a whole different story for another day. Once again I fell asleep last night at around 9:30 pm, which is not my usual 11 to 11:30 time. I have been … Continue reading 4 a.m. thoughts…I’m not a damsel in distress.
I sit here contemplating the post I made a few days ago...trying to decide whether to continue chatting online. There were a few whose true intentions finally showed and they were unfollowed then blocked. A few tried messaging but after I looked at their profiles, recognizing the similarity to previous people who were unscrupulous, so … Continue reading Hello friend.
Another night filled with doubt. Thoughts in my head, I want to shout. Not always this way, this is the truth. Feeling older, down and blue. Rather be filled with laughter and joy. Instead of irritated, feeling annoyed. Not sure what started it this time. Spiraling feeling, getting out of line. Wish things were easier, … Continue reading “Always Me” by Suzanne Allen
January 31, 2018 It is a typical morning, rushing around trying to get the teenagers moving and hoping my coffee will be done before we head out the door. Every morning, I wake up and check social media to see what’s happening in the world. This is usually when I will find a random message … Continue reading Don’t call me Queen – Why this annoys me.
It is January 28, 2018, and in a few days, we will be heading into February. The first month of the new year almost over, 11 more to go. It was supposed to be my usual quiet Sunday morning but it took a turn early and my stress level was elevated. I have been talking … Continue reading Double Standard – Am I that different?
January 20, 2018 It’s this beautiful, sunny, winter day. Blue skies and a slight breeze. Temperatures in the 60’s which is uncommon for this time of year after the round of frigid temps the week before. It’s a good day to be happy and grateful for a new day. Then why am I sitting here … Continue reading What Happened to my Life.
Night Drive by Suzanne Allen Lights reflecting on the glass. The skyline blurring past. The low hum beneath the wheels. Concrete and steel, never yields. Roads, curving, banking left and right. Traffic moving through the night. Sounds of music gently heard. Slightly muffled are the words. Talking about this and that. Occasional singing or a … Continue reading Night Drive
It beats in a steady rhythm. Deep sounds of a gentle hum. Waiting for the echo. The heartbeat of another one. Each day the sound is silent. Vacant, no return. The heart continues its song. Aching from its yearn. One day the song will cease. No longer will it make its plea. The life will … Continue reading The Heart’s Song by Suzanne Allen