It is May 15, 2018, and I have been talking to this online person for about 3 months now. He actually started following me in January but it took about a month before he actually messaged me then a few more weeks before I actually started responding. We have been talking to each other every … Continue reading Love is ageless – Answers to some questions.
Words can barely describe. What I feel inside. When I talk to you. It's been forever and a day. Since my last parley When I talk to you. It seems like idle chatter. Yet, it really does matter. When I talk to you. I've been in this silent desert. Time that can't be measured When … Continue reading When I talk to You – A poem
May 1st, 2018 It is May 1st. A new month and another new day to accomplish something. My sleep was not that great because I went to bed very late and I also had a rather bothersome dream. The dream was about the person I’ve been talking to online for a few months. He’s very … Continue reading What dreams tell us – Do we listen?
Nighttime Madness – by Suzanne E. Allen Thoughts of doubts fill my mind. Midnight anxiety, right on time. Self-destruction, breaking self. No amount of kind words can help. Please be patient with me, again. It’s never about you my friend. Need a moment to let the words fade. A long time ago they were made. … Continue reading Nighttime Madness – A poem
April 20th, 2018 Sitting in the car looking at how many miles until I hit empty. Just feeling grateful for the $20 of gas my son put in the car for me. At the same time also feeling pretty useless. It has been a hard adjustment this past year. I know that I shouldn’t feel … Continue reading 164 miles to E – Another 365 days around the sun.
It is Friday the 13th, April 2018. Yesterday, I spent a good portion of the day at a veteran’s job fair. I thought there would be more employers there but unfortunately, some did not show. I talked to few companies, told them what kind of positions I was looking for and then handed out resumes. … Continue reading Retrospect – Thoughts on how life moves.
April 10th, 2018 It is a Tuesday night after 10:30 pm and I should be thinking about heading off to sleep. Too many thoughts going through my mind and I don’t like it. I haven’t had these thoughts in a very long time it is making me feel lost and confused. I started talking with … Continue reading Lost and Confused – I’m too old for this.
It is April 9, 2018. I am still a single mom of four kids. This is not where I thought I would be at 47 (my birthday is in 12 days). I had hoped that by the time I reached 50, I would be settled down somewhere, paying off a mortgage, mid-career, planning for retirement … Continue reading Alone – Introspection on a life lived.
It is 11:50 pm on a Saturday night. I sit alone in the darkness, texting, chatting online and thinking about how to write this. This morning I went and saw the movie “Acrimony” by Tyler Perry starring Taraji P. Henson. The synopsis of the story states it was about a woman who gets revenge for … Continue reading Hold on or let go – Under the influence of a movie.
The last 4 years has been this never-ending cycle of change. It was a scary thing to do. The day I decided to change my life path by ending everything I knew up to that point. To dare to dream of a life that was completely opposite of what I knew. Some told me I … Continue reading Second chances – Ready or not.