That bewitching hour arrives once more. Darkness surrounds. Closed windows and doors. Lying awake, staring into the black. Thoughts tumbling over and over. Stress and anxiety start to react. Peace splintered once more. Nothing new to the mind. Been here before. Words carelessly thrown about What is it this time? Self-sabotage or self-doubt? Doesn't matter … Continue reading Tears in the Dark by Suzanne Allen
This was my entry for the Silver Cakes competition at the 25th Anniversary of the Oklahoma State Sugar Art Show. I got 2nd place and these are the people responsible for making the opportunity possible. This was only the second ribbon I received in these short 5 years of entering this competition. I was so … Continue reading 25 Years…a tribute to some fabulous human beings.
Love...on the other side of the world by Suzanne Allen Dedicated to Ghabriel. Time has moved so slow. Days my heart, felt like it would break. You would always know. We've fought quite often. I would be angry so would you too. Yet, Love never let our hearts harden. We miscommunicate like no other. Distance … Continue reading Love…on the other side of the world
Silence by Suzanne Allen Late night thoughts. Silence is deafening. Peace still being sought. Angry words thrown about. Silence drowns the noise Heart wants to shout. Tired of feeling alone. Surrounded by silence. No one here in this home. Looked for something good. Silence a long companion. Be patient was understood. Never knowing what it … Continue reading Silence – A poem
It's 11:35 pm on a Tuesday night. I am trying to wind down and go to sleep but as usual, tired but not quite sleepy yet. So I lay here and think about things. The endless list of "things" to fill my day and keep me busy. It can be exhausting at times. I think … Continue reading What I miss….
August 21, 2018 State of Emotion – Fear: Jealously and Mistrust reaction I was looking through previous posts and realized how far I have come from that very first entry over 3 years ago. The idea for this blog was going to be about cake decorating, sugar art, and related topics. The first writings were … Continue reading State of Emotion – Fear: Jealously and Mistrust reaction
7/19/18 It is the middle of July. The kids will be heading back to school in about a month. One will be a senior in high school and the others will be in college. As I look back, I knew this day would get here but wasn’t really prepared emotionally or mentally for the upcoming … Continue reading Parenting…we are not all the same.
July 12, 2018 The summer sun is slowing setting and the green trees are casting their shadows. The house is very quiet. The only sound is the hum of a fan blowing in the kitchen. The kids are off doing their own thing and my online relationship person is nowhere to be seen at the … Continue reading Filling the void.
It’s July 9, 2018. I was looking through my Instagram posts yesterday evening when I found the very first comments my online person made on one of my posts. It was January 1st. The first day of the New Year and here it is 6 months later and we are still talking to each other…I … Continue reading Too clingy and needy – 3 a.m. thoughts
July 5, 2018 It’s a hot Thursday evening, middle of the summertime. I was lying there this afternoon thinking about the conversation I had with my online relationship. We have a lot of miscommunication between us. Partly due to our cultural differences and partly because of the age gap but we continue striving toward a … Continue reading A moment away…